Sick and sad

Some days your body just gives up and surrenders. That’s what happened to me on Friday. By 1pm I was knocked out. And I tried to stretch a few more hours, but eventually just gave up. I don’t quite know what’s going on, but I was in bed all day Saturday with a sore throat and a low grade fever.

Despite the weeks worth of rest I got on Saturday, when I woke up on Sunday I felt worse. And though I moved around more on Sunday, it’s end of day and I feel as if someone has sucked all the energy out of me.

I am to blame for that feeling. Since Agam joins Confluent tomorrow I wanted to give him a few hours of break. He has been managing Tara and the house by himself since Friday evening and we all know that can be exhausting. I wanted him to get some rest so he can refresh his mind before joining a new role.

So I drove Tara to Town and Village shopping center in Palo Alto for some gluten free cup cakes at Kara’s and a trip to Sur La Table. We picked up some poke on the way back. Though it was a short trip. I am all drained out. Phew.

It’s an odd feeling to be in bed while the world runs on its own. As a Mom it feels even more sinful. But deep within I know I needed this rest. It’s been a long time coming.

Most of the year I have felt like a hit me toy. I keep facing the blows, and then get back on my feet. It only takes so many blows before the air runs out. So here we go! I want to feel like a hug me toy! I hope this year turns around. It’s been an exceptionally disappointing one so far.

This weekend I realized how much I need a helping hand in the house. The weekend chores come to a stand still when one of us is knocked out. God only knows how the week will go with no cooking preps, and loads of laundry waiting to be folded and ironed.

But regardless of what’s ahead, we are all excited about Agam’s new chapter. I hope he enjoys it. And that he meets some awesome people who make him feel challenged and inspired. I hope he has a successful run at Confluent! He deserves it 🙂

As for me, I hope this flu like thing settles soon. It ain’t fun to be sick. Especially for someone like me who hates to lay in bed all day 😦

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