I take immense pride in the fact that I did not attend any coaching class or go for any subject specific tuitions in my schooling years. This fact did cause me severe damage in the XIIth standard board exams, especially with calculus. Also since I did not enroll in any of the FITJEE, VMC type of JEE specific coaching centers, it might have hindered whatever chances I had of studying in a reputed engineering college in India. To be clear, I don’t regret any of these decisions. And yes, I was solely responsible for all these decisions. My parents often asked me if I need additional help but I always said No. Furthermore my grades were not all that bad either and hence they did not really have a cause for an alarm.
Why am I talking about all this? Because finally at age 30 I enrolled in some sort of a coaching program. It is a fitness coaching program, also referred to as personal training. I am going to try it out for a month and see what results I get. I might fail or I might discover something new about myself. Either way there will be some learning in the process.
I know it is not really a big deal. But it is for me. I don’t like to seek help with things that I should be able to do by myself. I don’t like to think of myself as weak. I can be unskilled, dumb or foolish, but not weak. And by signing up for this training program I admit that I am weak enough to see a need to supplement my will and determination with some professional help to achieve my fitness goals.
Who knows what lies at the end of this journey? The point is I just took the first step.